Arbit Rants of a Wandering Mind!!

Juxtaposed..
still confused...
Smiling.. as i think think of one..
Smiling again.. as i feel..feel its done..
its what i was.. and then its now how it makes me feel..
i dont if this is for real...
was i happier then.. or am i happier now..
have to figure and the strain shows on my brow..
is it the way i felt.. or is this new...
isnt it long time overdue...
will i be able to tell...
or will it stay in the shell ...
its yet to unfold..
and then it will be told..
but till then evin i wouldnt know!!
and it wont show!!