Jus a thght!!

This is a confession i have to make!!
To me it makes no differenceif i am here this moment and gone the next..
for all i can say.. i have been through the best and the worst...
as to what life may have to offer.. i have a full platter...
call it contentment... thts what i have..and have never envied another for that...
and to think when im gone it reallywouldnt matter...
after all i came here with nothing... and have lived till today without expectations....
(except once.. and yes i knew i shouldnt have expected... after all we are human... but im now wiser..we are all bound to draw first blood at some time.. and foolish me thought i knew everything...)
i never had a fear of death... or my imminent departure from this world..
and evry moment is a miracle.. (callme spiritual if you will.. ;)

and i was always wondering why is it that i never was worried when i thgt "wht if this is my last minute"...
and the calm i felt when i thght about our mortality..
was always searching for the reason... and sumtimes i thght "is it coz i never cared abt what happnd to me..." well it wasnt that and i was sure...

and finally when i read what i just found.. :) it was like... ahhhh.. there it is.. this is what i felt at all times.. and never knew how to put it into words.. and here it is .. ive found it...technically cant say ive found it,.. coz its sumthin i always felt... i should say.. ive found somethign that expresses the way i feel... in the best possible way...
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As we look deeply within, we understand our perfect balance. There is no fear of the cycle of birth, life and death. For when you stand in the present moment, you are timeless.

Rodney Yee
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Well ami reading too much into tht quote... maybe...
but then if i dont write out wht i feel.. whats the point...
when i get back to this page againi will atleast remember how it felt wheni first found this quote...

have decided that Chonicling my life aint the best thing to do on this blog...
instead i wil let it be my canvas...
and let my mind do the painting!!

read if ye will... ignore if ye will... for what i have to say i will ...
and read againmaybe when i get this way again!! :)